Author: fyhao

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Yesterday, 10 July, it is the graduation ceremony held in INTI. Many guys and miss dress up very handsome and beautiful like one in Friendster.

Today is the important day for them. For me, I still have 1 and more years to go.

For me, I still be normal person, going classroom through the student hall, but flooded with many cars and many persons. I saw some British or USA people came to the graduation ceremony. Maybe they are staff or management of UK or USA university which linked with INTI courses.

After that, I am thinking about my future graduation ceremony about what should it be along the way back to my hostel room. HEHE, hope I can get the first class honor degree + Sun Certified Enterprise Architect together. But it is a dream only. What I confuse is after graduate, where should I go? Singapore? What type of company? Big or SME company? What I looking for? Is it do something about Sun stuff or Microsoft Stuff? What is the value of I getting Sun Certified or I getting Microsoft Certified as well? This is the problem. But maybe it is true that at the graduation ceremony I would be more handsome than now.

Today also the first time I scolded in INTI. I always take it in mind. But today I cannot do it again. How can my roommate but allowing three friends stay in our room? And they play the music around the laptops, talking, and annoy me for taking the homework. So I talk them, scold them, mad to them. I told them immediately go out. I asked them why they don’t know see the situation? They are not polite. Their ages less 2 years than me. They are small. But after that I lost the communications with my roommate when he come back individually. What his friend talk him? Is it he believe it is wrong of me or wrong of his friends? I don’t know. I only see that he shut down the door with big strength. But think again, who wrong more? I am wrong because I scold his friend. His friend wrong because they not polite.

OK, last paragraph use Chinese to complete.

最近压力太多，所以终于按捺不住，开口骂人了。

Fantastic, that is it. I cleared Sun Certified Web Component Developer Exam with 100% right now.

This time, I gone Mid-valley to take my exam. But it supposed begin from 12.00pm. But I arrive there early and start the exam at 10.00a.m. However, I only complete it with 30 minutes, and checking answers with 15 minutes, and I submit the exam, and I passed it.

The question is truly easier than the one in SCJP. How I get it? I buy the books from David BridgeWater, then after that download the PDF Version of Head First Servlet & JSP, then download and do a lot of free mock exam online. Free Mock Exam online help me a lot also online. Head First series also the very best books you want to see if you decided to take any Sun Certification Exam. Head First is strongly recommended.

Thanks all my beloved friends, You know, I get it.

Now I decided to take the other developer exam, called business component developer, maybe in December this year, in Johor Bahru. Hope I can get it also.

Now is the time for me to rush my assignment and project. Currently I just begin for Year2 only, Year 2 has a lot of assignment and projects need to rush, and getting harder and harder. But with this hundred pass (100 plus, the soft drink), I think I getting confidence to fight with the exam war in the degree one…

My Chat room suddenly cannot reply any posts, so I reply at here.

Regarding Your question

Halo..i at jbtalks.cc saw ur name in an older post…about tarc question u asked…now u are inti student isit?(coz always at ur post wrote inti inti hahaha…} Not Bm failed cant get ptpt ? But u success to get it? how you to this ? @@ i also failed = =” teach me ^^

There is my reply:

Sorry, many days no come my blog. Regarding your questions, yes, I now is studying in INTI. And my BM have no credit but not failed, I got 7D. And I use UEC and SPM together to submit the documentation. I need to do a lot of thing, you can see my previous blog there got a lot my experience. The experience is tough for me to get the PTPTN. You can see my story about this.

But you say, you failed to get this, what is your situation? Are you student in Tarc or INTI? What your result about BM? And do you really complete all the requirement they need? Because I knew that they need a lot of requirement and you better need to complete it better and perhaps the best. I only can do this, because need to reduce my family burden. I heard that nowadays the PTPTN law already not very heavy, not easy to apply?

This is my MSN: fyhao@fymcs.com, you sure got any problem you can ask me. But I don’t think I can help you with the full answer… But some experience I can share with you ,the tough experience.

希望我今天，也就是刚刚，做了的决定，做了的行为，是值得未来纪念，而且是正面的，没有副作用，这个任务能完美的进行，没有任何的错误，完美的进行。

这一切归咎于一个心理问题。这个问题心理医生也无法解决的事情了，只能靠我自己，希望我的决定是正确的，希望我能自行解决这个问题。

在这之前，我一直以清心精神为主来想办法克服。但是这个心理障碍实在太强烈，太容易逃脱清心精神的束缚，这让这个精神只是沦为一个说爽的工具，根本没有效用。但也不能这么说，或许就是这个病症发作的时候实在太强烈，根本无法控制。但我希望，我要强力克服，克制。我必须加油，走向明天。

我真的不想再这样继续下去了，我真的很希望，我能有更好的人生。如果没有发生这些事情，其实我的人生会不会更快乐？

想到的问题的缘由，有可能是小时候吧？小时候，因为都被人家欺负，所以就会留下一些阴影。人也比较静，有什么问题，都不和别人说，都埋在心里。这样真的不对。以前都不会想。现在会想了，后悔了，但是我没有一丝的悔意，难道我已经冷漠了？还是已经习惯了？所以，才会自我累积成压力？

我希望我的问题能自我解决，成功解决。我不想其他人担心。特别是我的家人，我的妈妈，我真的不能让他们担心我，我必须振作，他们还需要我，清心还需要我。

我很高兴，我有那么好的朋友，他们一直支持我。我不是一个人。

现在，能不能面对其他人，只能看我有没有信心了。我必须勇气拿出自己的自信，我可以的，我能做到的，相信我。

不到两个星期，没有意外的话，我即将参加太阳考试，我真的希望，我能顺利的度过。度过后，我真的很想做一番事业，为了兴趣，为了将来。

加油吧！！！fyhao ！！！ Www.fyhao.coM fyhao webBlog 就是我了！！！

fyhao，我一定行。

失恋（失去暗恋）了一段时间，每当在学校走动，都是低头的走过去，因为我有点奇怪，我走路的时候很聚情回神的，我看着前方，所以旁边的人，即使很靠近我，经过我的时候还是需要特别挥手一下，才能叫醒我。如果没有挥手的话，我是完全不会发现有认识的人经过，因为我迷迷糊糊的，有可能一边在想东西吧！

因为低头，因为没有自信心。还以为考到了Sun Certified，可以提高我的自信心，走路的时候可以抬头，但我发现其实，没什么两样，虽然心里很高兴，值得骄傲一下，但是过后，一切都变回平常了，好像不是很足够的样子，所以我打算这个学期可以的话继续考高一点的等级，成为更好看的太阳花。

没有自信心的我，看到面前走来的女生，我都是低头走过去的。其实在我们的学校，也算是美女生产地，很多美女嘛。黑人就很多啦，但黑人不是我的菜，因为大多都是身子高高，或者拥有傲人的双峰，这些都不是我的菜，我对双峰没有特别的兴趣，怪人。中国女生也是很多，但老实说，也不是我的菜。我的菜还是以马来西亚人为主。当然，我不大确定，我的菜，是娇小玲珑，还是成熟的，或许都是吧！当然我很希望无聊人啊，我们的Ehosting公司能找几个人女生加入，有女生在，即使不一定会是我的女朋友，但是至少也提高我们男生的工作效率啊。

在我学校，就从我宿舍方向走去食堂，一路上，看到一个女生，走去我的block的后面。哦，原来她是住在那边的哦。第二天，我还是能看到她。不错美一下，算是属于娇小玲珑的，有点企鹅的味道。她是一个人。有时候两个人（两个女生）。有一次我去了食堂，就看到她一个人坐在食堂某个角落。我打算马上买了吃的东西，找个好位置坐下，想在她后面，偷偷的看着她的背影。但之后，我却找不到她了。距离太远，很多人遮挡。过了之后，我才看到她。她的右边前面都有几个男生。他们很亲密的在讨论功课。这种感觉太好了，能和喜欢的人一起工作，一起学习。我想，或许会有一些不喜欢读书的男生，在女友的存在下，会奋发图强，去好好读书吧！

其实在这以前，我也看到很多看起来不错的女生，在食堂的某角落，也是一个人。偷偷的看着她。她转过来马上看其他地方，或当作其实我不是在看她的样子。一样的，不久，她的男友一定会拿着吃的喝的来。心里一直想，如果我是他的男朋友就好。一直幻想着，是一种性幻想吧！但是我那么多缺点，又不会照顾自己，怎么照顾好女生呢？在这点，我失败了。

之后，不论在任何地方，遇到这种情景，只要是较好看的女生，不可能只是一个人，一定会有男生，只是时间上的问题，一定会马上出现，因此，他们一一证实了我的猜想：

名花，一定有主。

后记：其实我很想写这篇文章很久了，到了今天我才有时间写，也算了了一个写作的心愿吧！

Yesterday, o …. o…  (Remember? A English song named Yesterday…. haha) Yes, all right, yesterday, that is my Moral Final Exam. The questions came out is not in my perception. There are 40 multiple choice questions, all about theory questions. I could answered some, but more I can not answered, it is too hard for me. But I had tried my best to complete it. Later I went through the subjective question. I have had to write many and many paragraphs to complete the answer. Last question is asked about the computer information security, I had pointed out the policy privacy about the Social Networking Service nowadays.

In the exam hall, at first, I sat wrong seat. While we have two sessions, P and Q, I am P session. After I entered to the exam hall, I saw each rows got Plate A, B, C, D, to W, I sat in front of Plate P. Then after that the examiner came and saw me sat wrong place and take me to the right place. I don’t know if anyone saw me… hahaha… Anyway, I need to think again for the questions because after I changed the seat, beside I forgot what I think, and also…

In the afternoon, I read some articles about Quran, in Chinese translated version. After I read it, I approach to understand Quran, I think most of that is the right thing. It proposed the Science and prove it right. Yes, it is very hard for Mohammad to prove the Scientific experiment at that time, because while he is not fluent in writing, and no education, how to write Quran like that? Probably that the Allah is the one who sent the angels to help the Mohammad to write the Quran. Yes, I am interested with that. I also discovered some of the Quran story is similar to Bibles. I think I will also approached to Bibles later day, to study what about the different religions and its moral issues. As last, I had known something what about different religions in the world. In my opinion, actually Islam, Christian, Jews, the concept of one God, the God is the same among them. However while it is different kinds of Gods and different kinds of religions theories because it must suited to different places and different cultures. Other than that for example, Taoism and Hinduism, the concept of many Gods, while actually it is one God, but may be they need another God to help them solve the specific problem, that different God existed. While among the top religion is that the concept of one God. Somehow different religion will have different meaning, different explanation, again, due to suit to different places and different cultures. Later that, I discussed this with my friend Alvis and Wuliaoren.

At night, that is a raining day, it is cold, so I haven’t go out to eat, only one people eat the biscuits in the room. I surf around the Internet. For that day, besides read some articles about religion, I also read something about Cloud Computing, to know something about it. However for now I had only little knowledge about Cloud Computing, surely I will continue approached to know more about that.

Next, after 12.00a.m., around 3.00a.m., I and Alvis heard the car sirens sound downstairs. It sounded for a long time, many people went to see. Then we saw some Hindu people go there. I msn with Alvis (he just live next my room, my neighbour, but we use MSN), he talked me that is one way to stop the siren, that try to open the door, but it is illegal. For a longer time, the siren is stopped, I don’t know if the Hindu people had opened the door successfully. But before the siren stopped, there was one thing let me laughed and laughed, non-stop laughed. The story is about I msn with Alvis talked him that I can not stand for the siren, I want to go downstair to have some presentation and told him to see downstair from the window to see me present… Then after that I put Away on my MSN. Then after that it is very laughing when I saw the Alvis talked something like “wow, hao truly go downstair, (send nudge), oioioi”, Then I waited for some seconds, but I began laughed…. Hahahhaa… But after I laughed, the siren stopped.

Besides the siren story, I am worked about the imgshow forum plugin, I want to added more effect or functionality to the existing plugin. Alvis sent me a Flash Gallery script, which he used that in his project, I combined it into my plugin. It is very challenging when I need to link the XML file to have php functionality and also use the special way to share the data to the center control to the XML file, how to solve it? I worked around one hours more to solve it, after that, I used the Session concept to share the data. I will thanked for PHP author because he made PHP easier to manipulate the Session management.

And before that, yesterday eight PM I went again to Mohan lecturer home to get the printed version of Study guide to the Sun Certified Web Component Developer. If it is possible for me to study two to three months about that and I will take the Developer Exam next semester. This version of developer exam involves the knowledge about JSP and Servlets. In J2EE there are three version of developer exam, besides Sun Certified Web Component Developer, other that is Business Component (EJB), Web Services (XMLRPC, JMS), and other developer exam involves standard version (J2SE) and mobile version (J2ME). And last there is one exam that not perquisites for the SCJP or developer, everyone can take the exam, that is called Sun Certified Enterprise Architect. Actually it is involves all knowledge about the J2EE. But it is encouraged that one should at least that one of the THREE J2EE Developer exam, because there are related. For me, maybe this time I will take the SCWCD first, and maybe after graduation, I will walk through the highest one, SCEA, while I am working.

OK, that is all for my blog writing, I will continued to contribute my writing at here, thanks you all to read my blogs. Hope that it will be some useful thing for you in my blog.

Tomorrow is Moral Final Exam. I think now is the time while not late, to practice life liberation to save the lives. I studied this major case, I found some words from the other source, I placed it here.

The source is from: http://www.purifymind.com/SB51.htm

01: Why do Buddhists practise life liberation?

Buddhists practise life liberation to give the priceless gifts of fearlessness (from being killed), freedom (from captivity) and the Dharma (by connecting them to the Triple Gem through offering repentance, refuge and a better future birth, especially in Amitabha Buddha’s Pureland).

The Avatamsaka Sutra says, “If the negative karma (of killing in this and previous lives) is to take form, even limitless space cannot contain it.” Because we have accumulated immeasurable negative karma through killing directly and indirectly in the past, life liberation (for creatures great or small, of insects or animals of the land, sea or sky) is the most efficient way of repaying our karmic debts of killing, especially in this Dharma-diminishing age. Life liberation has immeasurable merits because it saves the lives of animals, generating immeasurable gratitude. This practice also fulfills the perfection of generosity in the aspects of sharing wealth (in buying the animals), time, energy, fearlessness and the Dharma.

Because we have been reborn for countless times already, many beings, especially those we have the affinity to encounter, have been our parents in previous lives. Think of it this way, if we do not liberate our parents, are we not worse than animals? It is already very unfortunate that our parents are reborn as animals, much more to say, to die painfully through slaughter. Just as we take the trouble to save our present parents’ lives, we too should save our previous parents’ lives. When we save animals, we are also saving future Buddhas.

02: What are other benefits of life liberation?

The merits from life liberation are varied and boundless. Here are some, according to the Buddha and many Venerable masters –

1. One will be unharmed by war or die by violence.
2. One will attain longevity and healthiness with few illnesses.
(Many pains and illnesses come from the karma of killing.)
3. One will be unharmed by natural disasters and accidents.
4. One will have abundant offsprings for future generations.
5. One will easily attain what one wishes.
6. One will prosper in official positions without obstacles.
7. One will be a source of gratitude to other beings and a source of joy to the Buddhas.
8. One will dissolve vengeance, and vanquish evil influences and worries.
9. One will experience joy and peacefulness in all seasons.
10. One will be easier born in Pureland.
(With practices of developing faith and aspiration, practising repentance, vegetarianism and single-minded chanting of “Namo Amituofo”)

03: If life liberation is so good, why do so many criticise it?

Life liberation is the easiest way to dissolve negative karma. Because of this, our negative karma of many lifetimes readily manifests obstacles to obstruct us from liberating life. As many who criticise the practice are plain ignorant of its benefits, we should share with them the benefits out of Compassion, so as to benefit them. We have to be careful not to criticise (or to let others criticise) life liberation as it creates great negative karma. We should not discourage the practice without understanding as we will be preventing many lives from being liberated.

04: How should we liberate life?

We can buy animals from any place selling them for slaughter (or plain imprisonment). Before releasing them into the appropriate natural environment, we (with venerable monks and nuns if available) should clearly recite (for the animals to hear), the verses of repentance, threefold refuge in the Triple Gem (Buddha, Dharma and Sangha) and “Namo Amituofo” (Homage to Amitabha Buddha) and/or other mantras such as “Om Mani Padme Hum (the mantra of Compassion) as many times as possible. We can also carry the animals while circumambulating holy objects such as stupas, Buddha images and relics. We can also sprinkle blessed water on them.

Through repentance, we remind the animals to repent their misgivings which made them reborn as animals. Through refuge, we wish the animals to be disciples of the Triple Gem. Through recitation of “Namo Amituofo”, we wish the animals to hear and be mindful of Amitabha Buddha, so as to create a strong karmic imprint to make birth in His Pureland possible in a future life. With repentance and taking refuge, this can free them from future births in the three lower realms of hells, hungry ghosts and animals. In Pureland, they will be able to attain Enlightenment and return to Samsara to help other beings be free of suffering.

05: Sounds incredible. Seems like an easy way out for the animals!

The workings of the law of karma are intricately exact but difficult to fathom. However, the fact that the animals we chose to liberate were chosen from among countless ones means that these particular animals actually have the merit to be liberated. However, when we choose to liberate them, we ourselves are actively creating positive karma by being part of the process of ripening their positive karma.

06 : But there are endless animals to liberate!

We should just do what we can in the moment. Just because we can’t being peace to the world overnight does not mean we should not start with our family. Likewise, just because there are many beings in suffering does not mean we should not help any at all.

07: Won’t life liberation over-populate the world with animals?

We do not eat ants and worms but they do not multiply in excess. They breed and balance naturally – without over-populating our world. We worry too much, when we should readily work in relieving other beings’ suffering, in dissolving our own heavy negative karma. We are like a farmer who hasn’t planted his crops yet, who worry about his fields being overgrown with crops.

A reason why there are many animals in our world is because many humans in the past have killed animals. For instance, when a man eats a goat, the goat in a future life might take a human form, who in turn eats the killer reborn as a goat. Thus is the animal and human world full of mutual killing. This makes it even more important to reverse the trend of killing animals, to stop perpetuating this vicious cycle.

08: But I’ll rather use money to help needy fellow humans.

Helping any needy beings is no doubt very commendable. However, if you analyse, with an equanimous mind, the suffering of an average needy human and an average animal about to be slaughtered, which is more urgent to save?

09: I’d heard of released birds which fly back to their “masters”, who re-imprison them for sale. What is the point of liberating such animals?

We should only liberate life with the best of intentions. Whether they get captured or not is another matter. For instance, when we feed a starving child, we cannot guarantee that he will not be hungry again. Similarly, a doctor who heals a patient cannot guarantee his healthiness forever. But he does it anyway because it should be done. Many matters are like that. We should not have the biasness or hesitation to liberate life, while we might not hesitate to do evil.

The shopkeeper’s capturing and selling of animals creates his own negative karma, while we create our own positive karma. Of course, we should also try to dissuade him from continuing his wrong livelihood. We should even dedicate merit to him, in the hope that he can change his livelihood to one more beneficial for himself and others. We should also approach shops selling animals randomly and without pre-order, so as to avoid the shopowners from over-capturing animals for sale.

10: Isn’t liberating animals through vegetarianism enough?

Without doubt, vegetarianism is a crucial part of the practice of universal compassion. In fact, if the whole world becomes vegetarian, there will probably be no need to liberate animals. However, it is only a passive way of liberating animals. In the mean time, there are countless animals which get slaughtered everyday for others’ meals. The Buddhas taught us to “Avoid all evil, to practise all good, and to purify the mind.” In a sense, vegetarianism (and veganism), which is the practice of not being directly or indirectly linked to killing, is just the avoidance of doing evil – it is not yet active doing of good! Animal liberation is Compassion in action, which also gives us golden opportunities to create positive karmic links with countless beings. Life liberation also prevents butchers from killing to some extent, relieving them of some negative karma, even if in a relatively small amount.

11: Isn’t is spiritually hypocritical for non-vegetarians to practise life liberation?

Not really. Just as it is better for a non-vegetarian to be vegetarian, it is better to be a non-vegetarian who liberate some animals rather then be one who does not at all. For instance, one who liberates chickens is not likely to eat chickens again. The more kinds of animals one liberates, the more likely he will become vegetarian. This is how life liberation teaches one to respect and treasure the equality of all life, to realise that we all have Buddha-nature. In the Mahaparinirvana Sutra, the Buddha taught, “One who eats meat cuts off the seed of compassion.” If one is serious about practising compassion universally, you should be vegetarian. Then one would be doing “animal liberation” from one’s dining table all year round!

12: There are cases of liberated animals causing other species in its environment to become extinct. Isn’t this harmful?

The fact that there are many animals means there are many beings (including humans) reborn as animals due to ignorance and negative karma. In this sense, a high animal population for every species in not necessarily a good sign. The diversity of species is not truly a “wonderful thing” as it means there is a wide spectrum of animalistic karma. In the Buddhist perspective, the extinction of an animal is not necessarily a good or bad thing. It means the particular animal has been reborn in another form in another life, for better or worse. But of course, it is important to survey the suitability of the environment before releasing animals into it, as the animals and plants in it play a part in supporting the interdependent web of life.

13: Don’t we create bad karma when we liberate animals which get eaten by other animals in nature, or which eat other animals?

Unlike humans who kill for sport and to satisfy his appetite, animals do not kill unnecessarily, other than for survival. If you believe in the law of karma, the life and death of every being is the fruition of its karma. There is no death for no just reason. The laws of nature and karma are one. Animal liberation simply frees animals into their natural environment which is their real home. Every animal would rather have freedom than be imprisoned and slaughtered for food. Even if the animals were to die, wouldn’t it be better that they die free in nature, especially after having strong karmic imprints of having taken refuge?

14: It still doesn’t feel right that freeing some animals might mean sending them to kill or to die.

When we practise animal liberation, we have to be mindful of the purity of our intention and our well wishes. What we wish to do is to give freedom, fearlessness and the Dharma, for this life and beyond. Any captive animal will be appreciative of that. It is inevitable that some might die in the process of liberation through accidents in handling. But because they have taken refuge, their next life will be better. Because of this reason, it is believed that those animals who die shortly after taking refuge are the most meritorious of the lot.
Anyway, most animals liberated properly do not simply die. We should not stop saving the majority out of fear of accidentally “conditioning” the death of a few. If we do not liberate any at all, they will all definitely die by slaughter. In this way, we are blameless. Remember – we are not just saving the present physical life of the animal we liberate; we are more importantly saving its “wisdom life” (spiritual life), giving it an uplifting boost.

15: Some people liberate the wrong animals into the wrong environment. For instance, releasing fresh water fish into the sea. Shouldn’t this be discouraged?

Of course this is discouraged! Although it’s the thought, above the consequences, that counts when we practise compassion, we definitely need to be more thoughtful than to simply release life indiscriminately. Compassion has to go hand in hand with wisdom!

16: It seems pretty hard to ensure that the balance of the environment will not be disturbed when we release life into it.

Indeed, it can be very tricky. However, everything we do disturbs our environment to some extent. For instance, using an non-biodegradable plastic bag plays a part in harming the environment for hundreds of years. Note that we should not break the law by releasing life in lawfully prohibited or protected areas. If seriously in doubt about finding a suitable place to liberate life, perhaps the best solution is to liberate sea creatures into the sea – which is limitlessly open and wide.

17: But some say there are sea creatures bred out at sea within nets which might not have the instincts for survival in open sea.

Nature is often more marvellous than we think. Animals have strong natural instincts. While we cannot be absolutely sure that they will survive on their own, we are also not absolutely sure that they will not. Maybe some scientific study someday will reveal accurate results to us. In any case, always remember to put yourself in the position of the captive animals… Will you rather wait for slaughter in a prison, or run to freedom despite fear of unknown “ground”? The choice is obvious.

18: How often should we liberate life? How many people should be involved?

One should liberate life or contribute to life liberation funds (if one is not free) as much as possible. There is no fixed occasion, though holy days are often preferred. Life liberation can even be part of birthday celebrations! The more participants there are, the better it is as more people coming together means more merits are created and shared with each other, including the animals and other beings.

19: The practice of mass animal-liberation on special merit-multipying days seem to encourage regular mass capture of animals. Is this a good idea?

Animal shopowners that we buy from can be approached randomly to avoid their discovery of obvious purchasing patterns. However, think of it this way – Isn’t it terrific that many animals are brought together to be given the opportunity of a lifetime to take refuge and be freed? What’s more, everyone’s merits, both the released animals and their releasers will be multiplied! Of course, one should not be attached to accumulating merits, or it will taint the purity of intention.

20: Great! I have no more questions!

Sadhu! Sadhu! Sadhu! What you can do next is to put your Compassion into action!